waiting in vain...

A funny thought to ponder on a rainy Saturday afternoon.

An excerpt from Bob Ong's:

Mga Pilosopiya sa pag-ibig

“ Kung maghihintay ka lang nang lalandi sayo, walang magyayari sa buhay mo… dapat lumandi ka din.”. .

dahil baka bukas pag gising mo ito na itsura mo.....

Happy Weekend everyone!

Inspired by When you're 30

I really had fun reading jo's post "when you're 30" , so i come up with answers to each number.

I'm 31, single, looking for a satisfying relationship, Im tired being in a a relationship only to find out that he is not the one, eh! my mom said he'll come in God's time, i hope this is the time, (but i enjoyed J's company) a satisfying career and something else that i believed still lacking in life. I'm not ashamed and im happy.

By 30 you should have:

1. One old boyfriend you can imagine going back to and one who remind you of how far you've come.
Ans: I can't imagine going back to any of my exs but i have special someone i regret because i have not given him a chance and i did not let him know how i feel, there are so many what if? Only if i can turn back time.

2. I decent piece of furniture not previously owned by anyone else in your family.
Ans: I have yet to experience living on my own (hopefully). when i got a job after college our house is fully furnished but I bought mom a dining table.

3. Something perfect to wear if an employer or the man of dreams want to see you in an hour.
Ans: Yes, i do have outfit to wear to impress them (chose!)

4. A purse, a suitcase and an umbrella you are not ashamed to be seen carrying.
Ans: I have those and i always have an umbrella with me.

5. A youth you're content to move beyond.
Ans: Like what redlan said, Yes no further explanation

6. A past juicy enough that you're looking forward retelling it in your old age.
Ans: I have lots of juicy past, that i can say been there, done that. lol

7. The realization that you are actually going to have old age - and some money set aside to help fund it.
Ans: As the old saying goes " mas mabuti na yung may pinagkatandaan kesa wala". I have realized it even before im 30 and need to save money to prepare for it.

8. An email address, a voice mailbox and a bank account- all of which nobody has access to but you.
Ans: I have those expect for the voice mailbox, ma try nga.

9. A resume that is not even a bit padded
Ans. Amen

10. One friend who always makes you laugh and one who makes you cry.
Ans: I have my bff who is the clown of my life and yes i have a friend who makes me cry for happy and sad reasons.

11. A set of screwdriver, a cordless drill and a black lace bra.
Ans. Maybe when i have my own place I'll buy screwdriver, I dont think i need cordless drill and i have black bra without lace, im not fond of lace. Bat kelangan tlaga may lace, lol

12. Something that is ridiculously expensive you bought for your self, just because you deserve it.
Ans: I treat my self an out of the country trip.

13. the belief that you deserve it.
Ans: Yes i deserve it!

14. A skin regimen, an exercise routine and a plan for dealing few other facets of life that don't get better after 30.
Ans. I started a skin regimen when I was in my teens, when pimples started to show up on my face, i have an on and off exercise routine and I dont want to worry on things, I just want to enjoy life.

15. A satisfying career, a satisfying relationship and all those facets of life that do get better.
Ans. A satisfying career is like having a relationship, you'll stumble on few wrong jobs or should i say a job not suited to you before you find the right one. Only few are lucky enough to find it in their early life. For me all of these are yet to come, very soon I strongly believed that.

By 30 you should know

1. how to fall in love without losing your self.
Ans. I have few serious relationship, a bad and good break ups and im proud i was able to keep my sanity intact, lol.

2. how you feel about having kids.
Ans. I love kids and i want my own.

3. how to quit a job, break up with a man and confront a friend without ruining the relationship.
Ans. I've quit in my few jobs, break up with men because i fell out of love and we became friends after and i'm not good at confrontation, i'd rather cease the fire

4. When to try harder and when to walk away
Ans. When I want things badly i will try hard to get it but when i feel that after doing everything I still don't have it then I'll walk away

5. How to kiss in a way that communicates perfectly what you would and would not want to happen next.
Ans. Amen again.

6. The names of: the secretary of state, your great-grand mother and the best tailor in town.
Ans. Sino daw, secretary of state? I know my great-grand ma on my father side, and the best tailor in our town, he used to be my dad before he switch to an office his job.

7. How to leave alone, even if you don't like to
Ans. As i'ved said, it is something i need to discover yet.

8. How to control of you own birthday
Ans. You mean birthday party?

9. that you cant change the length of your calves, the width of your hips and the nature of your parents.
Ans. I have accepted that a long time ago.

10. That your childhood may not have been perfect, but it's over
Ans. My former boss asked me "Michelle, why are you always happy?" I dont remember my answer but looking back i can say whoever i become, I owe it to my happy childhood.

11. what you would and wouldn't do for money or love
Ans. OO, naman!

12. That nobody gets away with smoking, drinking, doing drugs or not flossing for very long
Ans. korek

13. who you can trust, who you can't and why shouldn't not take it personally
Ans. trust my instinct

14. not to apologize for something that isn't your fault
Ans. I still do apologize sometimes even if it's not my fault, i feel sorry for that person.

15. why they say life begins at 30.
Ans. this is the first time i heard that life begins at 30, i dont know why.

This is just a basis, of course our life is not measured by this or any basis, it is how you live your life according to your beliefs, according to your own wisdom and understanding. I may not have everything and may not know everything but so far I am contented with what I have right now and im excited and looking forward on other things life has to offer or what is still in-store for me after 30 and beyond, things that are yet to unfold. For the meantime, i live my life one day at a time and don't let the things that i can't have or the things that I should have but i cant have ruin the enjoyment of the things I already have.

whew! xoxo

rain rain go away

the rain is like forever, i hope it wont get in the way, so i can accomplish my plans.

got a message that on this day, God wants her to know...... that the great advantage of having nothing is that everything becomes a gain.

On my own

This month is my birth month and I'll be celebrating my birthday on the 27th. Yay!

Speaking of birthday, I think it's about time to declare the independence I been delaying a long time ago. Please don't get me wrong, i can do things on my own, go where i want to go, what im saying is a different kind on independence.

I am a happy person, jolly, i love being surrounded by people i love, i love going to places with friends and families. Most outdoor things i did, I always have friends with me or family. Since I met J three months ago, he's been my constant companion.

Nonetheless, I always want to do things that scares me and go to places i never set foot in (alone) I went to divisoria or quaipo alone, it never scares me even if i been mugged 3 or 4 times because i know my way home. I am a certified lakwatsera, (ask me a place here in manila and i'm sure i can give you direction) but only to places where i can hail a cab when i'm really lost and tried.

When i graduated from college, i wanted to work somewhere outside Manila where I know nobody but me, but I set aside that idea since my is gonna freak out.

Anyway, since i been wanting to declare my independence a long time ago, i wanted to do things on my own this time, on my brith month.

So here is my list (partial) of the things I want to do ALONE, and that i hope i can accomplish if not this month, at least this year

1. Go out of town alone, my first choice is to visit pink Sister and Sonia's Garden in Tagaytay and go to Ilocos and to any other places if possible.
2. Watch movie alone ( im not sure, but ill put it in my list)
3. To travel out of the country alone in Asia only,( if outside Asia, that's a different story)
4. Call me weird but im scared to have a whole body massage, so i'll try this one. I've tried a back massage though.

Last night my mom and I had a real talk and she already gave me her blessing, i'm moving out .i thought she'll freak out when she heard it but thank goodness, she says yes pero next pa daw, lol pwede na rin. I have a conservative parents and im the youngest so it is understandable , i know you can relate. Hope she wont change her mind when that time comes, lol.

Please watch out on my solo flights soon, i really hope time permit me to do these things, alone.

For the meantime, i'll visit you blogs. Ciao