Wide awake

I got this from a friend, maybe some of you already read this but I still want to share this to you because it's too beautiful, I was awakened. Sorry this is too long but worth reading, enjoy.

The Awakening

Sonny Carroll

There comes a time in your life when you finally get it... When in the midst of all your fears and insanity you stop dead in your tracks and somewhere the voice inside your head cries out - ENOUGH! Enough fighting and crying or struggling to hold on. And, like a child quieting down after a blind tantrum, your sobs begin to subside, you shudder once or twice, you blink back your tears and through a mantle of wet lashes you begin to look at the world from a new perspective. This is your awakening.

You realize that it is time to stop hoping and waiting for something, or someone, to change or for happiness, safety and security to come galloping over the next horizon. You come to terms with the fact that there aren’t always fairytale endings (or beginnings for that matter) and that any guarantee of "happily ever after" must begin with you. Then a sense of serenity is born of acceptance.

So you begin making your way through the “reality of today” rather than holding out for the “promise of tomorrow.” You realize that much of who you are, and the way you navigate through life is, in great part, a result of all the social conditioning you’ve received over the course of a lifetime. And you begin to sift through all the nonsense you were taught about:

• how you should look and how much you should weigh
• what you should wear and where you should shop
• where you should live or what type of car your should drive
• who you should sleep with and how you should behave
• who you should marry and why you should stay
• the importance of having children or what you owe your family

Slowly you begin to open up to new worlds and different points of view. And you begin reassessing and redefining who you are and what you really believe in. And you begin to discard the doctrines you have outgrown, or should never have practiced to begin with.

You accept the fact that you are not perfect and that not everyone will love, appreciate or approve of who or what you are... and that’s OK... they are entitled to their own views and opinions. And, you come to terms with the fact that you will never be a size 5 or a “perfect 10” Or a perfect human being for that matter. So you stop trying to compete with the image inside your head or agonizing over how you compare. And you take a long look at yourself in the mirror and you make a promise to give yourself the same unconditional love and support you give so freely to others. Then a sense of confidence is born of self-approval.

And, you stop maneuvering through life merely as a “consumer” hungry for your next fix, a new dress, another pair of shoes or looks of approval and admiration from family, friends or even strangers who pass by. Then you discover that “it is truly in giving that we receive and that the joy and abundance you seek grows out of the giving. And you recognize the importance of “creating” & “contributing” rather than “obtaining” & “accumulating.”

And you give thanks for the simple things you’ve been blessed with; things that millions of people upon the face of the earth can only dream about a full refrigerator, clean running water, a soft warm bed and the freedom to pursue your own dreams.

And then you begin to love and to care for yourself. You stop engaging in self-destructive behaviors including participating in dysfunctional relationships. You begin eating a balanced diet, drinking more water and exercising. And because you’ve learned that fatigue drains the spirit and creates doubt and fear, you give yourself permission to rest. And just as food is fuel for the body, laughter is fuel for the spirit and so you make it a point to create time for play.

Then you learn about love and relationships, how to love, how much to give in love, when to stop giving and when to walk away. And you allow only the hands of a lover who truly loves and respects you to glorify you with his touch. You learn that people don’t always say what they mean or mean what they say, intentionally or unintentionally and that not everyone will always come through and interestingly enough, it’s not always about you. So, you stop lashing out and pointing fingers or looking to place blame for the things that were done to you or weren’t done for you. And you learn to keep your Ego in check and to acknowledge and redirect the destructive emotions it spawns; anger, jealousy and resentment.

You learn how to say I was wrong and to forgive people for their own human frailties. You learn to build bridges instead of walls and about the healing power of love as it is expressed through a kind word, a warm smile or a friendly gesture. And, at the same time, you eliminate any relationships that are hurtful or fail to uplift and edify you. You stop working so hard at smoothing things over and setting your needs aside. You learn that feelings of entitlement are perfectly OK and that it is your right to want or expect certain things. And you learn the importance of communicating your needs with confidence and grace. You learn that the only cross to bear is the one you choose to carry and that eventually martyrs are burned at the stake. Then you learn to distinguish between guilt, and responsibility and the importance of setting boundaries and learning to say NO. You learn that you don’t know all the answers, it’s not your job to save the world and that sometimes you just need to Let Go.

Moreover, you learn to look at people as they really are and not as you would want them to be, and you are careful not to project your neediness or insecurities onto a relationship. You learn that you will not be, more beautiful, more intelligent, more lovable or important because of the man on your arm or the child that bears your name. You learn that just as people grow and change, so it is with love and relationships and that that not everyone can always love you the way you would want them to. So you stop appraising your worth by the measure of love you are given. And suddenly you realize that it’s wrong to demand that someone live their life or sacrifice their dreams just to serve your needs, ease your insecurities, or meet “your” standards and expectations. You learn that the only love worth giving and receiving is the love that is given freely without conditions or limitations. And you learn what it means to love. So you stop trying to control people, situations and outcomes. You learn that “alone” does not mean “lonely” and you begin to discover the joy of spending time “with yourself” and “on yourself.” Then you discover the greatest and most fulfilling love you will ever know. Self Love. And so, it comes to pass that through understanding your heart heals; and now all new things are possible.

Moving along, you begin to avoid Toxic people and conversations. And you stop wasting time and energy rehashing your situation with family and friends. You learn that talk doesn’t change things and that unrequited wishes can only serve to keep you trapped in the past. So, you stop lamenting over what could or should have been and you make a decision to leave the past behind. Then you begin to invest your time and energy to affect positive change. You take a personal inventory of all your strengths and weaknesses and the areas you need to improve in order to move ahead. You set your goals and map out a plan of action to see things through.

You learn that life isn’t always fair and you don’t always get what you think you deserve and you stop personalizing every loss or disappointment. You learn to accept that sometimes bad things happen to good people and that these things are not an act of God... but merely a random act of fate.

And you stop looking for guarantees because you’ve learned that the only thing you can really count on is the unexpected and that whatever happens, you’ll learn to deal with it. And you learn that the only thing you must truly fear is the great robber baron of all time FEAR itself. So you learn to step right into and through your fears because to give into fear is to give away the right to live life on your terms. You learn that much of life truly is a self-fulfilling prophesy and you learn to go after what you want and not to squander your life living under a cloud of indecision or feelings of impending doom.

Then, YOU LEARN ABOUT MONEY... the personal power and independence it brings and the options it creates. And you recognize the necessity to create your own personal wealth. Slowly, you begin to take responsibility for yourself by yourself and you make yourself a promise to never betray yourself and to never ever settle for less than your heart’s desire. Then a sense of power is born of self-reliance. And you live with honor and integrity because you know that these principles are not the outdated ideals of a by-gone era but the mortar that holds together the foundation upon which you must build your life. And you make it a point to keep smiling, to keep trusting and to stay open to every wonderful opportunity and exciting possibility. Then you hang a wind chime outside your window to remind yourself what beauty there is in Simplicity.

Finally, with courage in your heart and with God by your side you take a stand, you FAKE a deep breath and you begin to design the life you want to live as best as you can.

A word about the Power of Prayer: In some of my darkest, most painful and frightening hours, I have prayed not for the answers to my prayers or for material things but for my “God” to help me find the strength, confidence and courage to persevere; to face each day and to do what I must do.

Remember this: “You are an expression of the almighty. The spirit of God resides within you and moves through you. Open your heart, speak to that spirit and it will heal and empower you.” My “God” has never failed me.

our third place

"It's not a home;

it's not a workplace,

it's that special place in between where

we meet to awaken our senses,

to find inspiration and

to make a lasting connection"

my shining shimmering splendid planner

Wednesday night is SB night for us (me and my officemates). After office our feet brought us at Starbucks Silver city (near Tiendesitas).

(photo credit here)

It's a walking distance from our workplace. There we chill, we laugh, indeed it awaken our senses and erases the tension of stressful day even just for a moment.

Yes, I can say that SB has become a third place for me and my friends, it host our reunions, reunions of our closest friends, it's a place where we are not afraid to show our emotions, mix emotions. We are not ashamed to get notice off because everybody there has their own business, has their own stories to tell whether they are alone (with a company of a laptop and iphone) or with friends. Stories that makes us cry, laugh, furious and stories that inspires us. To others it becomes their sanctuary.

It somehow makes a lasting connection between friends, new found friends, a love of your life and your family.

It's that third place where you can meet people from different walks of life.

Care to share your story over a cup of coffee?

P.S. special thanks to my friends who contributed stickers for me to get that shining shimmer splendid planner.

You say goodbye and I say Hello, hello, hello

As the year comes to a close, I would like to share some of the highlights of my 2010 journey:

TRAVEL

As early as January 9 , i got a chance to see Bangkok for the first time, learned some of their cultures and beliefs, visits temples and buddha (overload), enjoyed shopping at chatuchak and most importantly I got to taste thai food hmm (pad thai and milk tea, I miss)

LBM (Looking for Better Management)

In my quest for a better career opportunity I jumped from 1 job to another 3 times this year. Please dont get me wrong "job hopping" is not my hobby (lol). I got a chance to meet people, new friends and I learned a lot of things, albeit the downside of it is, I have to start over again.

Loved AND Lost - Need I explain more? I cried a bucket, but it is better to have loved and lost than never to have love at all. Agree?

Family Trip

Our travel up North, was I think, our very first family trip ( as far as I can remember). We went to Zambales and Baguio. We had fun specially the kids.

Yes, this is our very first out of town trip other than going to a relatives house or friends, my parents are not adventurous type of people, maybe because they are satisfied with the beauty they witness everyday:

the view from our home by the beach, there is no place like home indeed

Lastly, I got Olive, my new Ipod touch 4th gen (katas ng 13th month). I gave my Tabitha, my old ipod nano to my nephew as Christmas gift which I bought in Singapore 2 years ago. Now, when Im home, i spend more time with olive. Thank you Lord for the job, I was able to buy things I want. Hooray!

Other than these, I spent most of my time at work, home and new found friends and Facebook ( in the morning, before I sleep and every time i have the chance to open my account).

I am thankful to God for all the blessing he has given me and my family this year and as the new year starts, i would like to share some of the things I want to accomplish in 2011:

1. To be able to visit another Asian country hopefully HK with friends or family

2. To meet blogger friends. I am not a good writer, but i am happy to be able to share my thoughts with you. Thank you for dropping by and share a piece of you. I hope to see you all.

3. To be more health conscious

4. To travel alone and do thing that scared me most.

5. Update my blog regularly and visit all of you often.

6. Get my own domain to host my blog

7. And accomplish the things I was not able to accomplish in 2010.

Matthew Andrews, one of my favorite writers said, We should not label things that happen to us as good or bad", true indeed because everything happens for a reason, so whatever happens to you, just labeled it as gift from Above! Goodbye and thank you, 2010, Hello, hello 2011

I wish everyone a happy, safe and better and prosperous New year!

Mantra to self : I am healthy, I am good I am prosperous!

P.S. This is my entry to Jeanny year- end contest! Thanks to you sis, i was able to update my blog after 3 months.

busy as a bee

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I do exist (still) but busy as a bee. I hope to catch up with you.. :(

break it to me gently

It was Christmas when I last saw her, nearly one month ago, i told her "you lose weight," every time we see each other our usual greeting is about our weight "oy tumaba ka or oy payat ka na" things like that. Though thin, I noticed the size of her belly is a bit big for her current weight. I felt something is not right. I overheard her, my brother and my sister in law talking about her sickness and the mysterious lumps that all of a sudden grow on her shoulder and head, i joined them, she was complaining about abdominal and lower back pain, we told her to consult another doctor (actually we coerced her) for a complete check up since despite the negative result of her ultrasound she still experiencing pains. And the lump is so alarming.

Came new year and the pain is no longer bearable they brought her here in manila last week and she submitted to several tests like MRI, CT Scan, etc. Waiting for the test results is like eternity, first, the ultrasound revealed that her pancreas is swollen and they found lumps on her ovaries and chest and took tissues for biopsy. The big day came (which is today) when the doctor broke the news, yes she has a cancer ( bone cancer) and it's on stage 4, the doctors can no longer tell where did it starts since the cancer spreads to several parts of the body. According to my cousin, her husband, the doctor says they cannot do anything about it (hands up) but our faith doesn't want to give up, i know it will be hard for my cousin and the rest of our family, it came to us as a shock, it was too fast, she is complaining pains since September but at that time it is still tolerable, she had ultrasound and the result is negative so she ignores it, came november and december when the pain becomes severe and she cannot sit for too long.

We dont know how to deal with it yet, the only thing we can do now is to accept it, pray for her and be there for her. I didn't visit her in the hospital since she was admitted, i can't face her without breaking down, Im too transparent, the least we can do is to be brave for her and i dont want her to see me crying.

I pray for her and for other people who are in the same predicament.

is still alive...

my long absence should be blamed to my new job, computer virus and dsl trouble and I miss you all.


I am so back in the rat race and the stress overwhelmed me (but I thank God for the work), that's why whenever there is an opportunity to de-stress I grab it at once.

This weekend is one of the few:

A trip to Subic (Subic Yacht club)with new found friends

At SCTEX

Life indeed is a long journey

Hope to visit you soon. Enjoy the rest of the weekend.

Inspired by When you're 30

I really had fun reading jo's post "when you're 30" , so i come up with answers to each number.

I'm 31, single, looking for a satisfying relationship, Im tired being in a a relationship only to find out that he is not the one, eh! my mom said he'll come in God's time, i hope this is the time, (but i enjoyed J's company) a satisfying career and something else that i believed still lacking in life. I'm not ashamed and im happy.

By 30 you should have:

1. One old boyfriend you can imagine going back to and one who remind you of how far you've come.
Ans: I can't imagine going back to any of my exs but i have special someone i regret because i have not given him a chance and i did not let him know how i feel, there are so many what if? Only if i can turn back time.

2. I decent piece of furniture not previously owned by anyone else in your family.
Ans: I have yet to experience living on my own (hopefully). when i got a job after college our house is fully furnished but I bought mom a dining table.

3. Something perfect to wear if an employer or the man of dreams want to see you in an hour.
Ans: Yes, i do have outfit to wear to impress them (chose!)

4. A purse, a suitcase and an umbrella you are not ashamed to be seen carrying.
Ans: I have those and i always have an umbrella with me.

5. A youth you're content to move beyond.
Ans: Like what redlan said, Yes no further explanation

6. A past juicy enough that you're looking forward retelling it in your old age.
Ans: I have lots of juicy past, that i can say been there, done that. lol

7. The realization that you are actually going to have old age - and some money set aside to help fund it.
Ans: As the old saying goes " mas mabuti na yung may pinagkatandaan kesa wala". I have realized it even before im 30 and need to save money to prepare for it.

8. An email address, a voice mailbox and a bank account- all of which nobody has access to but you.
Ans: I have those expect for the voice mailbox, ma try nga.

9. A resume that is not even a bit padded
Ans. Amen

10. One friend who always makes you laugh and one who makes you cry.
Ans: I have my bff who is the clown of my life and yes i have a friend who makes me cry for happy and sad reasons.

11. A set of screwdriver, a cordless drill and a black lace bra.
Ans. Maybe when i have my own place I'll buy screwdriver, I dont think i need cordless drill and i have black bra without lace, im not fond of lace. Bat kelangan tlaga may lace, lol

12. Something that is ridiculously expensive you bought for your self, just because you deserve it.
Ans: I treat my self an out of the country trip.

13. the belief that you deserve it.
Ans: Yes i deserve it!

14. A skin regimen, an exercise routine and a plan for dealing few other facets of life that don't get better after 30.
Ans. I started a skin regimen when I was in my teens, when pimples started to show up on my face, i have an on and off exercise routine and I dont want to worry on things, I just want to enjoy life.

15. A satisfying career, a satisfying relationship and all those facets of life that do get better.
Ans. A satisfying career is like having a relationship, you'll stumble on few wrong jobs or should i say a job not suited to you before you find the right one. Only few are lucky enough to find it in their early life. For me all of these are yet to come, very soon I strongly believed that.

By 30 you should know

1. how to fall in love without losing your self.
Ans. I have few serious relationship, a bad and good break ups and im proud i was able to keep my sanity intact, lol.

2. how you feel about having kids.
Ans. I love kids and i want my own.

3. how to quit a job, break up with a man and confront a friend without ruining the relationship.
Ans. I've quit in my few jobs, break up with men because i fell out of love and we became friends after and i'm not good at confrontation, i'd rather cease the fire

4. When to try harder and when to walk away
Ans. When I want things badly i will try hard to get it but when i feel that after doing everything I still don't have it then I'll walk away

5. How to kiss in a way that communicates perfectly what you would and would not want to happen next.
Ans. Amen again.

6. The names of: the secretary of state, your great-grand mother and the best tailor in town.
Ans. Sino daw, secretary of state? I know my great-grand ma on my father side, and the best tailor in our town, he used to be my dad before he switch to an office his job.

7. How to leave alone, even if you don't like to
Ans. As i'ved said, it is something i need to discover yet.

8. How to control of you own birthday
Ans. You mean birthday party?

9. that you cant change the length of your calves, the width of your hips and the nature of your parents.
Ans. I have accepted that a long time ago.

10. That your childhood may not have been perfect, but it's over
Ans. My former boss asked me "Michelle, why are you always happy?" I dont remember my answer but looking back i can say whoever i become, I owe it to my happy childhood.

11. what you would and wouldn't do for money or love
Ans. OO, naman!

12. That nobody gets away with smoking, drinking, doing drugs or not flossing for very long
Ans. korek

13. who you can trust, who you can't and why shouldn't not take it personally
Ans. trust my instinct

14. not to apologize for something that isn't your fault
Ans. I still do apologize sometimes even if it's not my fault, i feel sorry for that person.

15. why they say life begins at 30.
Ans. this is the first time i heard that life begins at 30, i dont know why.

This is just a basis, of course our life is not measured by this or any basis, it is how you live your life according to your beliefs, according to your own wisdom and understanding. I may not have everything and may not know everything but so far I am contented with what I have right now and im excited and looking forward on other things life has to offer or what is still in-store for me after 30 and beyond, things that are yet to unfold. For the meantime, i live my life one day at a time and don't let the things that i can't have or the things that I should have but i cant have ruin the enjoyment of the things I already have.

whew! xoxo

On my own

This month is my birth month and I'll be celebrating my birthday on the 27th. Yay!

Speaking of birthday, I think it's about time to declare the independence I been delaying a long time ago. Please don't get me wrong, i can do things on my own, go where i want to go, what im saying is a different kind on independence.

I am a happy person, jolly, i love being surrounded by people i love, i love going to places with friends and families. Most outdoor things i did, I always have friends with me or family. Since I met J three months ago, he's been my constant companion.

Nonetheless, I always want to do things that scares me and go to places i never set foot in (alone) I went to divisoria or quaipo alone, it never scares me even if i been mugged 3 or 4 times because i know my way home. I am a certified lakwatsera, (ask me a place here in manila and i'm sure i can give you direction) but only to places where i can hail a cab when i'm really lost and tried.

When i graduated from college, i wanted to work somewhere outside Manila where I know nobody but me, but I set aside that idea since my is gonna freak out.

Anyway, since i been wanting to declare my independence a long time ago, i wanted to do things on my own this time, on my brith month.

So here is my list (partial) of the things I want to do ALONE, and that i hope i can accomplish if not this month, at least this year

1. Go out of town alone, my first choice is to visit pink Sister and Sonia's Garden in Tagaytay and go to Ilocos and to any other places if possible.
2. Watch movie alone ( im not sure, but ill put it in my list)
3. To travel out of the country alone in Asia only,( if outside Asia, that's a different story)
4. Call me weird but im scared to have a whole body massage, so i'll try this one. I've tried a back massage though.

Last night my mom and I had a real talk and she already gave me her blessing, i'm moving out .i thought she'll freak out when she heard it but thank goodness, she says yes pero next pa daw, lol pwede na rin. I have a conservative parents and im the youngest so it is understandable , i know you can relate. Hope she wont change her mind when that time comes, lol.

Please watch out on my solo flights soon, i really hope time permit me to do these things, alone.

For the meantime, i'll visit you blogs. Ciao

who is your "the one who got away?"

A friend posted this article in facebook. She got this from a friend who found it in The Manila Times. I really dont know what issue of Manila Times and whoever wrote this, thank you. This is worth sharing..

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That one person that got away....

In your life, you’ll make note of a lot of people. Ones with whom you shared something special, ones who will always mean something. There’s the one you first kissed, the one you first loved, the one you lost your virginity to, the one you put on a pedestal, the one you’re with …and the one that got away.

Who is the one that got away?

I guess it’s that person with who everything was great, everything was perfect, but the timing was just wrong. There was no fault in the person, there was no flaw in the chemistry, but the cards just didn’t fall the right way, I suppose. I believe in the fact that ending up with someone, finding a long time partner that is, does not lie merely in the other person. I can actually argue that an equal part, or maybe even the greater part, has to do with the matter of timing.

It has to do with you being ready to settle down and commit to someone in a way that goes beyond the little niceties of giddy romance. How often have you gone through it without even realizing it? When you’re not ready to commit in that mature manner, it doesn’t matter who you’re with, it just doesn’t work. Small problems become big; inconsequential become deal breakers simply because you’re not ready and it shows. It’s not that you and the person you’re with are no good; it’s just that it’s not yet right, and little things become the flashpoint of that fact.

Then one day you’re ready. You really are. And when this happens you’ll be ready to settle down with someone. He or she may not be perfect, they might not be the brightest star of romance to ever have burned in your life, but it’ll work because you’re ready. It’ll work because it’s the right time and you’ll make it work. And it’ll make sense, it really will. The day comes when you’re finally making sense of things, and you find yourself to be a different person. Things are different, your approach is different, you finally understand who you are and what you want and you’ve become ready because the time has truly arrived. And mind you, there’s no telling when this day will come.

Hopefully you’re single… but you could be in a long-term relationship, you could be married with three kids, it doesn’t matter. All you know is that you’ve changed, and for some reason, the one that got away, is the first person you think about. You’ll think about them because you’ll wonder, "What if they were here today?" You’ll wonder, "What if we were together now, with me as I am and not as I was?"

That’s what the one that got away is. The biggest "What if?" you’ll have in your life.

If you’re married, you’ll just have to accept the fact that the one that got away, got away. Believe me, no matter how fairy tale you think your marriage is, this can happen to the best of us. But hopefully you’re mature enough to realize that if you’re already with the one you’re with, that this is just another test of your commitment, one which will just strengthen your marriage when you get past it. Sure, you’ll think about him/her every so often, but it’s alright. It’s never nice to live with a "might have been," but it happens.

Maybe the one that got away is the one who’s already married. In which case it’s the same thing. You just have to accept and know that your memories of that person will probably bring a nice little smile to your lips in the future when you’re old and gray and reminiscing.

But if neither of that is the case, then it’s different. What do you do if it’s not yet too late? Simple… find him, find her. Because the very existence of a "one that got away" means that you’ll always wonder, what if you got that one? Ask him out to coffee; ask her out to a movie, it doesn’t matter if you’ve dropped in from out of nowhere. You’d be surprised, you just might be "the one that got away" as well for the person who is your "the one that got away." You might drop in from out of nowhere and it won’t make a difference.

If the timing is finally right, it’ll all just fall into place somehow. And it would be a great feeling, if in the end, you’d be able to say to someone, "Hey you, you’re the one that almost got away."

Source: The Manila Times

twist of fate

I been busy looking for suppliers for my online store and hopefully i can get a place to rent. anyway the sudden twist of my fate from being an employee to an aspirant entrepreneur is very overwhelming, exciting and scary. There's a lot i need to learn to start a business, I already made mistakes and i learned from it.

Yesterday I met two buyers, it is exciting meeting new people and future suki for my store, it's a different world for me, i was not confined anymore to the four corner of an office, i can buy my own time, though i miss having an officemates, i been working for eight years it wasn't easy to forget.

anyhow, i know that the road to my new world wouldn't be easy, but i am wishing and hoping and praying that i have enough courage and patience to go on.

I dreamed of owning a boutique, design bags and shoes. I hope it will come true :)

Please wish me luck. :)

thank GOD we're safe

I'm home and safe but my knees are still shaking. We had a car accident 4 hours ago. We came from school (at UP), my classmate/new found friend offered us (our other friends) a lift, we were turning right slowly somewhere in Quezon city circle, signal light turned on, suddenly a jeep came fast behind us and hit the headlight on the right side. I was sitting in front, good thing i'm wearing a seatbelt (which i usually forget to put on), Thank good LOrd we are all okey, even the jeepney passengers. I don't wanna go into detail, what's important is we are all safe. It was my first that's why i'm abit frightened.

Thanks to MMDA staff, Aline Borbon who helped us and volunteered to drive us home. Mabuhay ka!

Drive safely everyone! Be safe connie.

of leisure and responsibility

Yay! tomorrow is holiday and i'm looking forward to it and the back-to-back-to-back concert of Side-A, MYMP and Freestyle, opps i get too excited. I have a bunch of school papers to read and to report and Harry Potter and the Half blood prince in my plate, so this weekend is a mixture of leisure and responsibility, lol.

I was thinking of re-arranging my bedroom today but i need to consult first Lilian Too (for a good feng shui), yes i'm a feng shui believer, but of course i don't base my life in it, i just consult some and so far it worked for me. In general 2008 is a good year for me, almost everything fall into place but for one and that is what im working right now and i have a strong feeling that the Good Lord will grant me that wish soon (sounds optimistic) hah, i'll keep my fingers crossed)

I have found another shirt to add in my comfort shirts collection, i saw this in tiendesitas last thursday and i can;t resist its charm.


We put our Christmas Tree up yesterday but we still need to buy other decors to add on it.



Have you set up your Christmas Tree? Enjoy the rest of your weekend everyone.

Desiderata

Last night C and I went to megamall to buy tickets for the "back to back to back" concert of SideA, MYMP and Freestyle on Dec. 1 (yay, holiday). We dropped by at Papemelrotti to look for hopefully christmas gifts, i came across this poem, I know many of you heard or perhaps read this prose poem about attaining happiness many times, but still, is worth to share and i will never get tired of reading this soul enriching and food for thought, Desiderata. It was first copyrighted in 1927 by a poet and lawyer from Indiana, Max Ehrrmann.

Go placidly amid the noise and the haste,
and remember what peace there may be in silence.

As far as possible, without surrender,
be on good terms with all persons.
Speak your truth quietly and clearly;
and listen to others,
even to the dull and the ignorant;
they too have their story.
Avoid loud and aggressive persons;
they are vexatious to the spirit.

If you compare yourself with others,
you may become vain or bitter,
for always there will be greater and lesser persons than yourself.
Enjoy your achievements as well as your plans.
Keep interested in your own career, however humble;
it is a real possession in the changing fortunes of time.

Exercise caution in your business affairs,
for the world is full of trickery.
But let this not blind you to what virtue there is;
many persons strive for high ideals,
and everywhere life is full of heroism.
Be yourself. Especially do not feign affection.
Neither be cynical about love,
for in the face of all aridity and disenchantment,
it is as perennial as the grass.

Take kindly the counsel of the years,
gracefully surrendering the things of youth.
Nurture strength of spirit to shield you in sudden misfortune.
But do not distress yourself with dark imaginings.
Many fears are born of fatigue and loneliness.

Beyond a wholesome discipline,
be gentle with yourself.
You are a child of the universe
no less than the trees and the stars;
you have a right to be here.
And whether or not it is clear to you,
no doubt the universe is unfolding as it should.

Therefore be at peace with God,
whatever you conceive Him to be.
And whatever your labors and aspirations,
in the noisy confusion of life,
keep peace in your soul.

With all its sham, drudgery, and broken dreams,
it is still a beautiful world.
Be cheerful. Strive to be happy.